It’s breaking my heart seeing my grandfather in pain, he hasn’t ate since 8pm on Sunday night because he was told he was getting tests done on Monday. It’s now 11:20pm on Tuesday and he still hasn’t been allowed any food and he still hasn’t been taken for his CT and MRI Scan as there is a huge backlog of patients. When he was first admitted he was Nil by Mouth, now he’s Free Fluid but poor thing he’s starving and all he can do is just wait!

My mom arrived this afternoon and is pissed at the fact that they told him he may have a potentially severe form of cancer and are leaving him waiting and waiting without telling him (or us!) anything, not to mention not allowing him to eat even though he won’t be seen tonight.

My grandfather’s skin is really yellow, he’s on a saline drip and to make things worse, he had a bathroom accident during visiting hours. For a long time, when he needs the bathroom he basically NEEDS TO GO ASAP and 2 weeks ago while out he ended up peeing himself because he didn’t make the bathroom in time, then a few days later blood started appearing in his stool. Today at the hospital, he needed the bathroom, but because of the saline drip he couldn’t get to the bathroom in time and started panicking and getting really upset because he peed himself infront of us and then he ended up having diarrhea at the same time, he couldn’t help it but he still got really upset like he was about to cry. I think the hardest bit for him was the fact that we were there and he was helpless. Of course we were telling him it’s okay don’t worry and we called the nurses to come help clean him up and I handed over some clean boxer shorts and PJ’s. A few hours later, it happened again.

I hate the feeling of being helpless, but what hurts the most if the not knowing. We still don’t know 100% if he does have Pancreatic Cancer and now another doctor is saying that they think his liver has been affected as well. My aunt is a Senior ER Nurse and she told me straight that she doesn’t think he will get allowed out of hospital and doesn’t think he’ll make his 82nd Birthday on June 20th.

I really hope she’s wrong *sigh*

Note: Thank you for all your comments, smses, facebook messages and emails. It means alot & sorry I haven’t replied to them all *hugs*


  1. Girl I hope they figure out fast what is affecting him, it is wrong to keep him waiting this long especially in his case.

  2. I had to go through that as well with my grandfather just keep having faith and pray for the best

  3. Believe me when I say I know how you feel… been there, and inshalla he will be fine. Maskeen walla I feel so bad for him and being helpless kills, but you are a strong woman 🙂

    I am keeping you in my thoughts and prayers *Hugs*

  4. Lavender© Reply

    Allah yshfee 7abeebti… I know its hard to see someone you love in so much pain, and not being in the place to even help alleviate that pain one way or another… He is in my prayers.. I hope they find out what is wrong with him, and help him get better… 🙁

  5. that totally broke my heart to pieces .. i’m deeply sorry .. and sincerely pray God to help him ..

  6. @Marzouq – in total, they kept him 5 days not knowing 100%. That sucked

    @TAT – I’m still hoping!

    @Laialy_q8 – me too, I hope the doctors are wrong

    @Ansam – I think that’s the only thing we can cling on too, hope and faith

    @Shaymaa – thank you, it means alot.

    @Sunshine – thank you!

    @Jacqui – we get more results on thursday!

    @Lavender© – all I can do right now is to try make him smile.

    @nannOo – thank you, I just hope he’s not in pain

    @Midoe – enahalla!

    @nono – *sigh*

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