I like mama being here, our relationship in this past year has grown. We can laugh & joke together and I like that. We went shopping this afternoon for Christmas-y things for my little tree I’ll put up in my apartment, along with getting a black tie for baba for the funeral on Friday and finding a gift for my brother’s girlfriend.

Baba arrived this afternoon and we all went out for dinner (including my brother, which is a rare occurance) and then watched football matches on TV together. I’m such a guy sometimes haha I had a bowl of popcorn and a bottle of diet coke and I was screaming at the TV when the ball went offside or penalties occured. Everyone says I’m not your average type of girl and I like that hahaha I like being one of the guys… sometimes…. but then switching to my feminine ways when needed 😉

Mama called the police last nite after these workmen were throwing garbage into a huge truck at 2:45am and we couldn’t sleep! So the police guy on the phone said that he’d right an incident report and send a police car round to the guys. Within 20 minutes, the noise stopped and we eventually fell asleep!

The family got a call from the funeral company saying that we cannot go view my great-aunts body due to the nature of her death. Seemingly, she not only died from sepsis and renal failure but MRSA and C-Difficle which are very contageous diseases and because of that, they cannot risk anyone being exposed to her dead body. My grandfather didn’t see his sister for nearly a month and she died, so he’s a little upset he cant get to see her one last time. I’m actually a little glad at this because I don’t think he could cope seeing his little sister lying there dead, no matter how much they cleaned her up and made her look respectable. I don’t want his last image of her being a dead body, but rather her in hospital trying to be brave and fight the diseases which killed her.

On Thursday, the Priest guy wants to meet the family to discuss the funeral and pick songs to sing. My great-aunt was a very religious Christian who went to Church every Sunday until she got ill. In her younger days, she used to bake cakes for them and sold them in the Church cafe along with helping in fundraisers etc. So the funeral will be filled with tons of people from the Church, reading from the Bible, singing religious songs and generally stuff I have no clue about! I know more about Islam than I do about Jesus and whatever else is in the Bible.

Then we are going to sort out her personal belongings that she collected since she lived in the family house. My grandfather’s family moved there in 1933, my great-aunt never married and she stayed in that house ever since. Her childhood best friend whom she met the very day they moved to the house in 1933 will be at the funeral. Mashalla having a friend all those years is amazing and it’s so sad losing a best friend after all that time.

I worry about my grandfather, I’m the closest grandchild to him and I’m the one who visits him more than anyone else, I’ve been there when he’s collapsed and had to call an ambulance and I love him more than anything. I know on Friday things will be so hard for him, so I’ll be by his side as always. Mama had to take him to hospital yesterday because he keeps waking up with really bad nose bleeds, ever since his sister died, I think it’s to do with blood pressure and he took some tests and was given medication so enshalla he’ll get better. I worry about him 🙁

I’m feeling generally alot better, there have been times this week when I’ve cried, laughed, stared into space and times when I’ve wanted to pull my hair out, but having a great collection of friends around me, not to mention family, has made the past week all the more bearable. Thank you once again for all the phone calls, voice mails, emails, smses and comments on my blog *huggles*


  1. Im really really sorry to hear that but stay close to your grandpa and just be there as much as you can :s

  2. Lavender© Reply

    hey sweety… sorry about ur grandpa… but you’re right, its best for him to have a memory of her alive then one of her laying dead in her coffin (May she rest in Peace)… I am happy that your doing a bit better… keep ur head up.. and try stay strong for ur family sweety…

    BTW.. I am happy ur relationship with ur mom is doing well… Its the best relationship a girl can truly ask for!


  3. Ironically, the holy book of Islam has quite a lot of info on “Jesus and whoever else is in the Bible”

  4. @Jacqui – yah I know babe ;*

    @Lavender© – it will take time bes enshalla things will be back to normal!

    @chikapappi – *hug*

    @HS – yes I do know that. I was meant to say whatever else is in the Bible not whoever.

  5. its good your feeling better! Sometimes things are just difficult, and you have to do what you need to move forward!

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