That a girl goes through
When I’m angry inside
Don’t want to take it out on you
Just one of them days
Don’t take it personal
I just wanna be all alone
*snaps out of the Monica mood*
In all honestly, my head has been all over the place today… infact scatter brain is a word that could be used. I tried to concentrate studying finishing my 11 projects I need to finish by Sept 3rd, but I couldn’t. My brain wouldn’t focus! Today has been weird, I think my hormones are all over the place! I was watching Extreme Makeover Home Edition earlier and started crying everytime they talk about the family they are doing the makeover for :whoa:
And now, I’m online but I don’t really want to talk to anyone, my parents and grandfather called but I didn’t really talk much to them. Oh & I spent 3 hours searching for my passport for Wednesday and in the end, turns out it’s not even with me, I left it with my Grandfather for safe keeping ARGGH! I even forgot about cooking dinner, all I’ve ate today is scrambled eggs for breakfast with a slice of wholemeal bread and 1/2 a carrot.
I want to sleep, but I know I won’t be able to sleep if I go to bed right now since the nightclub across the road has it’s music up louder than normal and I can listen word for word every lyric and what the DJ is saying over the MIC! ARRRGH… I wish I was sleeping in the country side at my grandfather’s house where you can sleep a night without ANY noise, so quiet you can hear a pin drop or the birds chirping outside lol I need to go to his tomorrow (thats actually today now!) to pick up my passport so I’ll probably sleep over so I can function a little better.
In other news, these pills I’m taking are messing my body up! You know inside they always have a little flyer about the medicine and the side effects? Well trust me to get all the side effects… these are: migranes, stomach pain, boobs are hard as rocks (NOT a good thing!), drowsiness, disorientation & getting so hot at night that you have to through all the covers off and basically sleep semi-naked (also NOT a good thing, cause no doubt I’ll end up with the flu by the end of next week). But for all those side effects, it’s supposidly helping me so I gotta wait til my body gets adjusted to 1800mg of big white ugly pills a day x the rest of my frikin life!
Oh & to make things worse, I had some fat free vanilla ice cream last night and I felt so dizzy like I was going to pass out. I never realised that if I ate the “no no” things that I’d feel like my head was going round the biggest rollercoaster in the world at the speed of light (okay a *slight* exaggeration).
Which reminds me… I have to make a week long food diary for the next specialist I’ve to see on the 20th *argggh* I’m going to a Nutritionist as I need to be on a special Glucose/Insulin diet for my stupid annoying ovary which is pissing me off now beyond belief. If I just ripped out all my girlie reproductive organs I’d be as fit as a fiddle, but sadly I want mini-ananyah’s so I can’t. I swear that I’ll torture my future kids on this for the rest of their lives, damn right lol
I’m going to take John Mayer, Michael Buble, Corrinne Bailey Rae & anyone else who will join me to bed and listen to relaxing songs before I pass out for the night.
Have you ever had one of those days?