October 2006


Wohooo It’s Halloween today and I demand candy! Yes I do *stomps her feet*

I was supposed to go to a Fancy Dress party, but since I’m ill, have a project due tomorrow, and basically can’t move from my bed…. I’m stuck here dreaming of trick or treating. So who is gonna be nice to me and DHL me some candy?

A girl needs her weekly supply of candy y’know!

It WILL make me feel better… HONEST!

Candy I like:
+ Smarties
+ M&M’s
+ Maltesers
+ Jelly Babies
+ Gummy Bears
+ Hershey’s Cookies & Cream
+ Cadbury Dairy Milk (all types)
+ Nerds
+ Fizzy Cola Bottles
+ Fizzy Strawberry Straws

So, any takers? :dance:

I knew something was wrong yesterday when I started getting an ear ache followed by a shiver down my neck, my nose started soon after, then the coughing….. the key symptons that I always get when I know my body is going to ache for over a week, my nose running like a waterfall, and not being able to eat.

Ladies & Gentlemen, I have got a cold…. my bones are hurting, I’m in a bad mood and taking it out on the wrong people, my ears hurt, I just want to curl up with a huge mug of tea (even though I’m a coffee girl), a hot water bottle, and a warm bed and sleep away my pain 🙁

I hate getting sick, but I have a low immune system and always pick up every little bug going around :'(

Oh well……

Today I had my 1st major MSc assignment, I was to give a 30 min talk all about Wireless Networking to my class and around 10 professors.

I was working on my presentation for around 2 weeks, so when today came, I was so nervous! 10 mins before it started, I couldn’t stop laughing! For some reason, I kept laughing and I had to leave the room to breathe and compose myself!

So it was time for me to stand up infront of 70 people, I gave a quick intro to what I’ll be talking about, a definition of WN, security, business benefits & future technologies. I didn’t finish too early or too late, so that was perfect!

However, as I was talking I felt myself get nervous! I’ve never given a presentation to this big a group, I could hear my accent changing into really strong American, then changing to an Arabic accent and started saying Broblem instead of Problem, then suddenly changing into a weird mix of American & British.

After my presentation, I felt sick, I was so nervous!!! My teacher came to me and said that I did a great job & my presentation was well researched and he cant wait for my report on the subject. Then all of a sudden he was like “Where on earth are you from? One minute I think your British, the next you seem American!” so yah I had to explain my life story and then he goes “Oh that’s why your messed up then!”

So yah… my Uni Professor who I’ve only met 4 times already thinks I’m messed up!

I have 15 projects due before Nov 16th, I’m busy non-stop and seriously have no time for myself! I haven’t been on MSN alot, I miss my Twirlies, I spend the night time with my mom, but with my laptop surgically attached to me while I do my projects, and there is no sign of me slowing down!

My doctor told me to rest, I’m on really strong medication now to control the pain I’m having until I get a letter from the hospital to see this PCOS specialist who will determine how big the cysts are, if they are “dangerous” or can easily be fixed with medication. Thanx to everyone who commented on my last post, I was freaked out when I found out about it, mainly because my doctor kept saying how I may not be able to have kids and then alarm bells rang in my head.

My mom is travelling back to Paris tomorrow, before flying back to the UK in around 2 weeks time to hunt for more apartments. (I’ve seen a few I love!)

Oohh & I finally went to Nando’s here :dance: I went with a guy in my class, and later on, my mom & brother met up with me, so I introduced them oo we all ate together. The guy in my class was also laughing at how my accent was changing between American and British hhehehehehe I’m a fucking weirdo!

After 4 years of torturous pain, feeling like I’m being stabbed, vomiting my guts up…. the doctors today offically diagnosed me with PCOS (Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome).

The doctor showed me the ultrasound results and said that I have small cysts (tumors) in my ovaries which is why I go 5 months with my period some times, also one of the main side effects of this syndrome is that I will have a hard time trying for kids OR I can become totally infertile which is scaring me because I really want kids in the next few years.

There is ways to treat this; medication or an operation, I’m still in alot of pain and I really don’t know what to say. But at least alot of things add up, like losing clumps of my hair, not having my period for over 5 months, putting on weight, feeling dizzy & weak all the time.

I just really hope that I’ll be able to have kids, that’s all I’m worried about!

You’ve got this look i can’t describe,
You make me feel like I’m alive,
When everything else is au fait,
Without a doubt you’re on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can’t find the words to write this song,
Your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don’t argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It’s not a secret anymore,
’cause we’ve been through that before,
From tonight I know that you’re the only one,
I’ve been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand
by Corinne Bailey Rae

I am lucky because:
+ I have amazing parents
+ I’ve never let the bad things in my life change who I am
+ I live between Paris & Glasgow
+ I’ve lived in 3 different continents
+ I have friends all over the world
+ I have travelled all over the world
+ Have amazing best friends
+ I have a white heart
+ Have had a good education all my life
+ Have a BSc in Computer Science and International Business with E-Commerce
+ Realised my dreams early on
+ I am honest & trustworthy
+ My health is okay
+ Got a job not because who my father is, but because they wanted ME!
+ Am now doing my MSc, which I love!
+ Realised which career path I’m aiming for

For the first time in my life, I am truly truly happy! I have achieved everything that I wanted (so far!) and I can’t help but smile like an idiot!

I’m watching TV with my mom, I managed to steal my laptop off of her for a while so I can blog about this show I’m watching. It’s called Death of a President

“Set in the near future, the drama imagines the assassination of George W Bush and examines America’s reaction to it.

The feature-length film is shockingly real and uses archive footage and documentary techniques to great effect.

It is October 2007 and US foreign and domestic policies have polarised the country’s electorate. Arriving in Chicago to make a speech to business leaders, the President is confronted by a massive anti-war demonstration. Unperturbed, Bush goes ahead with the visit. But as he leaves the venue he is gunned down by a sniper.

While a nation mourns, the hunt for his killer swings into action and the state apparatus tries to make sense of this horrific attack on the administration. The investigation soon focuses on a Syrian-born man, Jamal Abu Zikri.

Death of a President is a gripping drama that explores the administration’s responses to 9/11 and is inspired by the real-life experiences of those caught up in the ‘War on Terror’.”

I’m actually enjoying it! I couldn’t help by laugh when he got shot though (yes that’s evil!) but it’s an interested TV Show….. it would be freaky if it did happen this time next year!

Anyhoooo back to watching TV & doing one of my MSc projects at the same time

Note: There is a woman speaking in Egyptain Arabic and is pissing the hell outta me! Sorry Sou but I seriously cannot stand the Egyptain Accent!!! Or wait… maybe it was Palestinian… geez they sound the same… sorry Izzy 😛

Update: No No sorry… it’s Syrian…. but I still hate the Egyptain Accent 😛

My mom is flying over from Paris tomorrow afternoon to visit me :dance: I haven’t seen her in a month and I am actually missing her for some strange reason!

The advantages of her coming over are:
1. She cooks instead of me
2. I can go out til late with her instead of having a curfew
3. She is looking into buying an apartment so I can live alone (& have a life!)
4. She’ll take me shopping

The disadvantage of her coming over are:
1. Having to share a bed with her for 1 week

Never the less, I am excited about her coming over 😀