I woke up this morning and looked at the date, it’s been a month since my grandfather died. Things are pretty much still raw & I miss him like crazy. I guess as time goes by, I’ll stop counting the months and move to years but nothing can stop me from ever forgetting him and missing him like crazy.

I miss our daily phone calls, watching black & white movies with him, watching him snore on the sofa, sleeping over at his house, hearing old stories… even the lectures about how much diet coke I drink. Those are memories, one’s I’ll never forget and I treasure every moment I ever spent with him, I just wish I had more!

My mom left to Paris yesterday for 2 weeks & I’m doggy sitting Chewface (once again, not his real name, but he loves chewing, so there!) . It was so funny when mom brought him over on Wednesday night, he was running all over my apartment and I decided to play hide & seek with him. There are 2 entrances to the bedroom so I ran into one end and hid at the other end and he had no clue where I was when I was shouting his name, lol it took him 5 minutes to find me (with help from my mom LOL)

Mom & Dad stayed over on Wednesday night so I was staying in the Mezzanine level, when everyone went to bed, all I could hear was little foot steps then jumping from the dog, he was jumping up the stairs to find me. He jumped into bed and curled himself up against my legs and started snoring his little head off, then moving 10 minutes later, jumping back down the stairs onto the sofa, needless to say, 10 minutes later he was back on top of my bed for the rest of the night moving from position to position. I woke up with his little head on the pillow next to me

Everytime I take him out for a walk (and to pee & poop) everyone keeps staring at him, he’s attracting way too much attention, especially at 11pm when I’m in my PJ’s and I take him out before bedtime LOL. Yesterday, I met 2 new people that live in my building who were playing with him on the staircase and telling me that they can doggy sit anytime I want hehe, then a security guard at the construction site across from my apartment asking what colour he was as it’s unusual. Today he decides to run into a fishing shop and play with the owners (who thought he was cute) but he loves all the attention, especially when they start playing with him and tickling his little belly.

I’ve got another 9 days of this LOL, but it’s okay… he’s too adorable!

I’ve been at my grandfather’s house since Wednesday helping mom sort through the last belongings of my grandpa. It’s strange calling it my grandfather’s house because he’s no longer with us but I guess I have to deal with that until things change. His house number is still on my phone under grandpa and I call it nearly everyday to talk to mom who is living and looking after his house until it sells, but when do you start erasing a name from your phonebook? or do you?

My grandpa’s house looks like an empty shell. We donated his clothes to various charity organizations, alot of his household items and furniture were given to an organization that helps homeless people get housed, basically a starter pack to help rebuild their lives. I think he’d be glad that he’s helping others after his death.

I can’t believe it’s nearly been a month since his death, it still seems like yesterday and I really hope he’s okay. I’m not really a religious type but I hope he’s in heaven with my grandmother and they are together again, happy and not lonely anymore.

One thing for me in all of this is that I have new found respect for my mother (even if I don’t show it so much mom!) but having bitches as sisters and still managing to stay strong to do right by my grandpa is all I could ever want in a mother and more (dad ain’t so bad either hehe). She might need a tongue transplant after everything is completed from having to bite it so many times LOL!

She’s off to Paris on Thursday for 2 weeks and it’s the first time I’ll truly be alone in months which is kinda freaking me out, but I’ll be doggy sitting and my brother and his fiancée are a phonecall away.

I better get to sleep it’s 1am and just wanted to update my blog a bit, got sore fingers from typing this on my iPod touch hehe!

Love you all, my parents more than others :*

My brother is currently in Portugal with his girlfriend. He just called to say that he proposed to her and she said yes

My mom’s first words were “has she been out in the sun too long” LOL

Congrats Bro (I’ll know you’ll read this eventually) :*